I promise, well maybe. 9/10

So it’s been a couple of months. I created this blog and was so excited for the future it holds. I was so interested in ways it could help people. I was excited for the ways I could find myself. A week-long excitement will soon be forgotten for about a month. It’s interesting that the human mind can do such a thing. Waiting for the moment to start something so exciting and then replace it and leave in the past.

Note that I do not do this to just you readers, but I do it to myself. Is it because I am scared, bored, or forgetful? Who knows? One thing I do know is that I started this blog because of desire, so why do I run away from it? I could point fingers at being a gemini INFP, however, that’s just excuses.

This blog is something I want. I want to choose not to run away but, I cannot promise that I will be back next week. I can’t promise that I’ll ever be back ever again.

So why even create this blog? If you are so desired and see the good impact it can cause for yourself and others, why complicate it to ever return again? It’s because promises of the future are nonexistent.

I hope the reader can understand and see this. Promises are a way to make humans feel secure about situations; however, we sincerely have no control or power of promises. We hold on to promises and we rely on them heavily. We make a promise during marriage, we make promises for jobs, we make promises to our parents to be a good person, we make promises to ourselves. When these promises are not reached to our full potential, we are left with betrayal. Promises lead us to complete failure and we become so surprised about it.

I’m not going to lie and say that I have never made a promise to myself. Everyone makes promises to themselves, it’s in human nature. When promises fall out we blame it on someone else, never ourselves. When we choose to blame ourselves for relying on another situation, we say to ourselves, “I am so stupid” or “I should never have believed them”.

Promises are a good thing for us to be secure about but should not be the reason we feel secure in life. Promises are ways to find certainty about a situation for the future, which is not going to be the same outcomes we plan in our heads. Promises cannot be kept since the future is not certain. No human in the world has any prediction for themselves. You may have an idea of what you want your future to look like however, 9 out of 10, it leads into something completely different.

Life changes, future changes, promises changes. Do not blame yourself but understand that we sincerely have no control on the outcomes of life, which is completely okay!

I do not stress or tell myself where I'm going to be in the next ten years. If you want control and promise to yourself, the best way to do that is to live in the now, the present moment. Humans have no control of the past and future. Life is so unexpected but our minds do not want to believe that. We want to have an agenda for the game of life and follow it step by step. We were made to believe that this is how life should be and it is the only way to be successful. When the path starts to curve, we feel unorganized and scattered within ourselves. I choose to see that if we have no control and promises of our future, why try so hard to keep it intact?

This is why I am so late to start another blog post. This is why I am not on myself for breaking promises to myself. We are meant to break promises, we are meant to fail, we are meant to not predict the future.

If life is guaranteed to be unpredictable, why try your best making it as predictable as you can?

So I might be back tomorrow with another post or next week or next month or maybe years. Follow what you want to do. Follow your path and do not rely on the promises. Do not rely on my promises, your promises, or someone else's promises. They will break but there is beauty and a lesson to be learned through that. Every promise is not to be made. Give yourself the break and understand that what the future holds is out of your control. We cannot change the outcome that the universe hands us but, we can change how we view it. If you want true control of the promises, start by understanding that it is going to have a different way on how you see it. Become comfortable with it and see the beauty in change, not the negativity of what life is meant to be.